Hi everyone.. Here we go. Since young i have always been a sexual person i dont understand where it comes from. But it holds me back from loving the people i care about like i should. I am embaresed to speak to any one about it because i am also addicted to pornography and masterbation. I have prayed about it so much for so long and asked God why i was given this thorn it seems like it is too much for me to handle.
I never get an answer and now my life moves backwards and forwards. Some days i feel on fire for christ and then i would sin by watching porn or masturbating than i am back to level one again. The more this keeps happening the more i am starting to give up and find i can not speak to God as i feel he does not hear me.
I cry but never tell any one about it. i am 24 and starting to loose my hire i believe it is due to masturbating. i am also not confident as i happen to be short. I have never spoke to any one about my addictions may be for about 12 years. Even plucking the courage to write on this took so much. Only because any answer i get wiil be from people who wont know me personally.
HELP ME.
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Hey... I am deeply sorry for your struggle and sorry that the church and society have made it such a shameful one.
But you know you need help. Check out http://www.xxxchurch.com which is a ministry dedicated to porn addiction recovery and support. I'm not sure how useful it is, but it is a resource anyhow. Have you also considered a Christian counsellor? That would provide you with a safe and confidential place to share your troubles and get some advice. Go to a Christian bookstore and buy books related to the subject. Equip yourself as much as possible. And keep talking to God. He wants to hear from you, no matter what. Running away from Him will only make things worse.
I am praying for you, and I have faith that by the grace of God, you will break free of this bondage. God will guide you and help you. Don't give up!