Hi everyone.. Here we go. Since young i have always been a sexual person i dont understand where it comes from. But it holds me back from loving the people i care about like i should. I am embaresed to speak to any one about it because i am also addicted to pornography and masterbation. I have prayed about it so much for so long and asked God why i was given this thorn it seems like it is too much for me to handle.
I never get an answer and now my life moves backwards and forwards. Some days i feel on fire for christ and then i would sin by watching porn or masturbating than i am back to level one again. The more this keeps happening the more i am starting to give up and find i can not speak to God as i feel he does not hear me.
I cry but never tell any one about it. i am 24 and starting to loose my hire i believe it is due to masturbating. i am also not confident as i happen to be short. I have never spoke to any one about my addictions may be for about 12 years. Even plucking the courage to write on this took so much. Only because any answer i get wiil be from people who wont know me personally.
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